This boy once told me… while I was sort of venting to him… and this was years ago: ”Some people are just not going to like you, it’s not a big deal, it’s just life”. And this is a statement I’ll probably never forget. And he was sort of a friend and he was gorgeous and at that time I thought that was a big deal… and what did he know about people not liking him, what did he know about anything etc. etc. And you hear a lot and I have heard a lot ever since I recognized art and music and entertainment as a business…. “you have to be able to take rejection”

I think that these things are true… but, I’ve never thought of music and me making music as an issue of being liked or being rejected and having to take rejection. Music has always been in my life and I enjoyed it and I discovered I can create it and just love it. I’ve always been told that I’m rather sensitive… but, just like how kids fall and get back up again, it’s being sensitive also, that gives me the ability to be resilient.
Resilience to me, equals strength. A lot of my strength comes from knowing who I am and for the most part, liking who I am.

I was talking with a friend about relationships and how there have been so many times where relationships were ended and they didn’t know why they got rejected and we agreed that it’s better not to know to know why and focus on the… for whatever reason, it didn’t work. Does it matter why? Does it feel good to have a relationship where you manipulated the person to like you? Where you changed yourself just to be accepted?

I probably take rejection too well and I’ll pretty much do what I want, whether you like it or not. The times I can immediately remember as rejection were actually exhilarating… I felt super-heroic power to conquer the world because my heart sank so low and I bounced so high like the super plastic balls from the grocery store vending machine.

I say, be afraid of rejection…. but, still allow yourself that risk because the strength you gain from it, is more than you gain from acceptance.