My altruism makes people uncomfortable. Not just that… I make people uncomfortable.
I always have. Because when you’re feeling guilty or bad about something you do, or said
in comparison to how another person who goes about it in a genuine and positive way,
it makes you feel like you’re doing something wrong. No one likes to feel wrong. No one
really likes feeling like the bitch in the room.
I was going to write about my personal journey through this, but I’ve decided not to.
I’d rather just say that I hope when more and more people gather at my shows or forums
I create with my music as the common denominator… that it’s full of altruists also.
I have no idea if it’s an underdog thing… if it’s a maturity thing… if it’s because of my
personal experiences thusfar in life… if it’s how my parents, grandparents, aunts raised me…
but, I don’t want to be associated w/people who find enjoyment in putting other people down.
I’m not an all-inclusive person. And I’m not pious or religious. I just go-in, believing… everyone
has a story and reasons why they are the way they are and deserve to be treated kindly.
I’m over the projectile-hate machine.
When you start getting that feeling like you want to start talking shit on someone…
it would be a great thing to curb that urge by asking yourself if you could get by w/out
saying it outloud… take baby steps and move towards a neutral observation to a compliment.